why i deleted my okc.
evolutiongoneastray
free energy, really? that's the card he played?
- sarah:
- cosby sweater, we've been through this: no visiting my profile.
- fuckface:
- Get over yourself, I didn't realize it was you. Don't message me.
- sarah:
- really, i want to know why you'd visit anyone's profile who happened to be over ten years your junior; com'on, man.
- fuckface:
- What's your problem? Age isn't an issue, it's maturity level. How wise a person is. I've dated women in their 40's, and I dated a women your age. Why do you care?
- sarah:
- clearly, that methodology has not been working for you; but good luck, charlie. good luck. i take that back; you're drinking again, are you?
- fuckface:
- You're just mean. Yes, I started drinking again, how did you know that?
- sarah:
- congratulations on such a brilliant and overall magnificent decision.
- fuckface:
- Why are you doing this? You must be someone that's in pain too I guess. That or you're just cruel.
- sarah:
- oh, charles, my dear lad, "too" makes it seem like we're the same; we're not. you just suck at life in general - i'd tell you to kill yourself, but i'm afraid you might actually listen to me.
- fuckface:
- I suck at life in general? You don't know that much about me. I put myself through college, working full-time. I have four years of college credits. I worked at a public radio station for four years. I interned at the current, adding music to the on-air-playlist. I interned at a Studio A recording facility, where I worked with members of Free Energy. I wrote, recorded, mixed, and produce a record in my home studio. I made a video for it with Flash. I'm proud of it. I paint, and play guitar and sing for people. I relapse, and my friends die. Friends in high school shoot themselves with a shotgun, die of cancer. I've fallen in love with people, and in some way or another, I've had an impact on their lives. I've volunteered and helped kids with their homework. I don't think that I suck at life. Sometimes I do. But I have fun, I make people smile, and I'm interested in their lives. Hope you have a good night.
- sarah:
- i feel the need to tell you that you really need to reflect on that statement, because honestly, that has nothing to do with anything i have been saying. "in general" is not limited to whatever accomplishments you feel you have managed under your circumstance. now, sir, please reflect because i'm still transfixed by the sheer thought that you actually took your time to list what you think you have done in life that proves you don't suck; what was your motivation for that? clearly, you couldn't have been attempting to explicate yourself to me -- your ex-girlfriend's little cousin that you "joked about" wanting to have a threesome with. i do believe it must have been for your own benefit; did it benefit you? do you feel better now that you have listed items? i certainly hope not because they really do amount to nothing in the grand scheme of things. if i didn't know better -- oh, wait, i don't -- i'd say that you were trying to justify what your life has become. the rest of this message was just a bit too cruel and, seeing that you're already having trouble in holding a conversation with me, we're just going to let it not be said. i hope you have a nice night too, charlie.
granted, i do have a thing for white rappers.
- ...
- reply:
- i prefer intellect over personality, anyway.
- ray:
- So I can tell. Well clearly you won't give me a chance to show I'm very talented and intelligent. But then again with how judging you are why would I want to prove anything.
- reply:
- good point.
- ray:
- So what's it gunna be? We gunna try this thing again and get know each other or call this the end?
- reply:
- we should probably call this the end simply because you didn't even spell "gonna" right.
- ray:
- Over one damn letter seriously? Your going to not talk to me because I misspelt an abbreviated word?? Nothing sounds wrong with this?
- reply:
- nothing, it's actually pretty sound logic.
- ray:
- It's Actually sound pretty logic?? Don't you mean.. It actually sounds pretty logical?
- reply:
- no, sound is also an adjective, meaning "in good condition" or "undamaged." and while yes, i could have said "it actually sound pretty logical" what i said is correct too. it's hard being you, isn't it. but to help convey what i actually intended, "it's actually pretty sound logic" is directly tied the fact that you can't spell "gonna" which isn't even proper english, not the logic of not talking to you in general. check your rhetoric, bro.
- ray:
- It actually isn't easy being me. Your completely right after all. Seeing as to how I don't study the entire fucking dictionary I'm a retard for a lack of a better term. I guarantee I know things you don't so does that mean your on the same level as me? I'm just curious because you have some pretty deep rooted issues with judging right away.
- reply (here i just get childish):
- it actually isn't easy being me. you're completely right after all. seeing as how i don't study the entire fucking dictionary; i'm a retard, for lack of a better term. however, i guarantee that i know things you don't - does that mean that you're on the same level as me? i'm just curious because you have some pretty deep rooted issues with judging right away. issues? really, i'd just rather not waste my time on having to teach duffers how to speak their native tongue.
- ray:
- It's a dating site! Not a fucking college essay. Wow no wonder your on this site.
- reply:
- "not a fucking college essay" is a fragment. you are really need to work on your punctuation (commas and semicolons especially), and understanding of "your" versus "you're."
- ray:
- I know the difference! Now that me know twat pisses u off I can keep doin it. Haha you need some good dick your life for real.
- reply:
- o lyke whut, btch. i dund evan kno whut u saiin;. lyke serriusly, iz gat layed. an' i dund rrlly car wut u r trayin; a say.
- ray:
- Lol I actually have no issue assimilating what you said. I just feel you might be sexually frustrated.
- reply:
- oh my goodness, you can even read re-re. well, truth be told, i'm not. honest. this site is pretty good at making sure i'm not; maybe you should try it.
- ray:
- Haha yea I can read. I'm pretty sure You would want me back after one night.
- reply:
- you know, i see that you're saying that. but you're not seeing me vomit.
- ray:
- It's not that bad is it? Haha
i've been lax.
- talentedboss:
- hi
- reply:
- howdy.
- tb:
- I like your profile. You look hot. I want to see more pics
- reply:
- well, that's really awkward.
- tb:
- i can sortof see your boobs in the first one more boobs would be good
- reply:
- ...no.
- tb:
- please? please take a pic in your underwear
- reply:
- why would i do that.
- tb:
- i will buy you some weed if you let me come over and look at you in your underwear ...are you in high school?
thoughts of the day.
aside from being ridiculously tired and lacking any form of articulate thought; please allow me to properly illustrate what is occurring in my life.
i don’t know, maybe i’m just depressed - you know how i get.
but, i am not upset with the direction my life is headed; simply, the rapid rate. i am getting left behind while everything is happening around me. deadlines, deadlines, appointments, deadlines.
i don’t know what to do. i am frustrated; can’t i just be happy that i only have thirty days left of high school? why is that not making me ridiculously happy?
is the fear of having to pay for the rest of my education? yes, that probably does play a role in what is transpiring.
yet, i find myself wanting to pull my hair out, crawl under my covers and having crying fits.
i just want someone to hold me. because i am frustrated and i am regressing back into my infantile state, which admittedly does happen ever so often.
i just want to punch something, and make someone make me feel better while i cry. because, i’m starting to realize that i really just suck at everything i do.
just. just. i just don’t know. i really don’t.
social interaction sucks as well, dear.
